<333

hmmm. journal update maybbee.
just another ordinary day with extraordinary events
not much new with me
i guess
I need to buy a new wardrobe?
all like i dunno something different
something new and fresh, yet different from what ive gots now, yet something no one else will have. hmm

I wanna be a gangstah a straight up g yoo.

yea up
i forgot to take my ritalin (sp?)

alright well
expects a longer update soon.
peaccee ouuttt
<<----♥->->

Trying to think of lryics and story ideas.
Nothing comes to mind
Dammit all.
I'm in one of those moods where I really wanna write lyrics or storys
and nothing comes
It makes me sad=[
Well if you care Heres a picture
I'll post more later

I thought that if there was some kind of liquid running down my mouth in like some neon colour this picture would be like woah, but that was after the picture was taken. ugh.

Is this what you wanted?
Cuz' it's not what I wanted

[]Given a hickey
[]Danced around in your underwear (at home)... as well as other places :S
[]Gotten a hickey
[]Gone to summer camp
[x]Sang into your hairbrush
[x]Refused to listen to a teacher
[x]Cried in public
[]Made a perverted snowman
[]Done the splits
[x]Picked flowers from other people's lawns
[x] Walked around in your underwear
[x]Been grounded
[x]Tripped on your feet
[x]Checked under your bed before going to sleep
[]Played on a sports team
[x]Spent all day on the computer
[x]Worn black nail polish
[x]Forgotten a birthday of someone important
[x]Had a conversation with yourself
[]Fallen asleep at school
[]Lied to a doctor
[]Been to a slumber party
[x]Had a pillow fight
[]Lied about your age
[]Made fun of someone to fit in
[x]Stood up for someone who was being bullied
[xxx]Heard people talking badly about you
[x]Been called fat
[x]Been called anorexic
[x]Fainted
[]Went outside in underwear
[]Worn an article of clothing without realising the tag was still on
[]Kicked someone 5 years younger than you
[]Cursed at a teacher
[x]Cried in front of a teacher
[xxx]Cursed at a parent
[]Done drugs
[x]Licked somebody
[]Had sex
[]Called the police
[xx]Made a prank call
[]Stolen something from a store
[]Said a racist comment and meant it
[]Made yourself throw up
[x]Thought you were going crazy
[]Doubted your sexuality
[x]Lied to a teacher
[]Wished you were dead
[]Tried to kill yourself
[x]Given the finger to a complete stranger
[x]Been to a concert
[x]Went to school in pajamas
[]Hurt an animal on purpose
[x]Broken something that was special to someone else because you were mad
[x]Cheated on a test
[xxxxx]Copied off of someone else's homework
[x]Sworn at a little kid
[]Driven while you were drunk
[]Been in a car accident
[]Spit in someone's food
[]Ran away from home
[] Skinny-dipped
[]Held a real gun
[]Wished someone would die
[]Been beaten up
[]Beat someone else up
[]Wished someone would be raped
[x]Wondered what the world has come to
[]Had a crush on a teacher
[x]Ate so much you got sick
[]Hurt yourself on purpose
[xxxx]Thrown a glass object so that it broke
[]Cheated on a boyfriend/girlfriend
[]Kissed someone you hardly knew
[]Smoked a cigarette
[]Broken a bone
[x]Biten someone
[]Worn a mini skirt
[]Made out with someone of the same sex
[x]Eaten dog/cat food
[x]Stuck gum under a table
[x]Written on a desk at school
[x]Chewed a pencil
[x]Spit on someone
[x]Been spit on
[]Driven over your lawn
[xxxxx]Told your crush you liked them
[]Skipped class
[x]Written on a cubicle in a public bathroom
[xx]Stayed up all night
[x]Eaten a bag of cookies in a day
[]Been kicked out of a store
[]Put dog/cat food in someone's food
[]Refused to pay someone back after you promised you would
[]Read someone else's diary
[x]Sworn at an animal
[x]Tripped in public
[x]Walked into a pole
[xx]Walked into a parked car
[x]Found someone much older than you very attractive
[]Stapled your finger
[xx]Laughed at someone who was seriously hurt
[x]Found a bug in your cereal
[x]Been so lazy you wouldn't get up to go to the bathroom
[xx]Fell off the bed
[x]Peed your pants at school
[]Watched porn
[]Almost drowned
[]Had a black eye
[x]Went rollerblading and crashed into a bush
[]Made fun of someone because they were fat
[x]Snuck out of the house
[]Dyed your hair
[]Cut your own hair
[]Been stung by a bee/wasp
[xx]Climbed on a roof
[]Worn gothic make-up
[]Had a contact break in your eye
[]Had food poisoning
[]Had heat-stroke
[x]Bought an article of clothing and never wore it
[]Cut yourself on a blade
[]Fallen on glass
[x]Worn an article of clothing that was lime green
[x]Eaten a bug
[xxxxxxxx]Eaten something that fell on the ground
[]Been to a shrink
[]Had surgery
[]Needed braces
[]Worn a bikini
[x]Failed a Test
[x]Failed a class
[]Been teacher's pet
[x]Been teacher's least favorite student
[]Slow danced
[x]Been afraid of the dark
[]Seriously thought of hurting someone else
[]Had a cavity
[xxxx]BEEN IN LOVE

Hmm. Life gets better.
Lots.
I recently found out that huggles are awesome.
Especilally with a sweet lovely boy named Connor.
I less than triple three him ( In a friend type way ) <333
Movies are getting too old too soon.
But cuddling in movies are one of the many best inventions ever.
Connor is such a sweet kid.
Awwww.
He makes me smile.
Holly gosh it is soo cold out ( right now )
Me and Connor had to wait 50 minutes for the bus urgh damn bus.
Hmmm. tis Christmas soon, can't wait.
Hmmm. Party this New Years anyone?

I tend to get headaches a lot now:(
So far...I have lost maybe two friends?
Urgh I hate my damn mouth.

Tis waiting to cuddle while watching cookies bake, and drinking hot chocolate, and eating hot fudge with connor. Then eating the cookies cuddling under a blanket
I miss watching those long summer rains, the ones that really put you in deep thought when you watch the rain pound on the window, or listen to the rain pound down on the roof. And thunderstorms. Miss those things too.
I think a lot, and I don't know if that's a good or bad thing, or maybe just a bit of both.
After the time period that I find myself in deep though, I always get a headache. What's up with that.
I want rain, rather than snow.

--I want it to rain and pour outside my window. This place that we called home, is growing old, and the scenery stays the same. Falling asleep in someones arms, is better than waking up and noticing they're gone.--

Ps. People grow old, places don't

I'm better=)
thanks Connor
Ashley's (Fletcher) totes getting screwed over...In a bad type way
Dunno If I really have much else to say...
Yes this update was really short...

Peace♥

Ps. I have found a new favorite band.- Ten Second Epic...Like Woah

Starring---Connor(Afro man...My best guy friend)

Scene One
Walk's down the hill...and ses a rock which is acually invisible...so therefore he can't really see it....

Scene Two
Fall's over the invisible rock

Scene Three
Continues to tumble down the hill...

Scene Four
finishes rolling down the hill, and approches a Invisible ramp (one that he can't see...but we can...)And flys into an ocean

Scene Five
Floats down the ocean...and the waves cary him away...Lighting almost hits him

Scene Six
Ends up getting washed up onto a beach of an unknown island
Where birds bring him back to life

Yah ok...I know I could've been a tad bit more descrptive...but It works...

Things don't matter anymore
I'm fairly misserable, broken and torn, inside
And I don't believe I can be fixed
Don't give me any of your pity or sympathy
I feel that no one knows how I feel
Inside or out

What good does it do if no one hears you
Screaming the lyrics
But no meaning comes from the words

Please listen, just this once
And hide it well
This is the part where we say goodbye
Cock the gun
And pull the trigger

I'm sorry to have bothered you
I'm just having a tough time
And I knew that in that moment
I had somehow become the stanger
I needa spend some time alone, think things out
But too much time is way too much

Please listen, just this once
And hide it well
This is the part where we say goodbye
Cock the gun
And pull the trigger

What good does it do if no one hears you
Screaming the lyrics
But no meaning comes from the words

So tell me, what good does it do if no one hears you
Screaming the lyrics
But no meaning escapes from the words


Tis me, oh yes it is.
And no there is nothing to my throat, remain calm

I've posted at least maybe 3or4 entrys within the past few hours.
Waiting for tomorrow to come.
I need to see him
I miss him like crazy
I haven't seen him since two summers ago
Time passes by so quickly
He was at least 12 or 13 when I last saw him
Now he's 14
But tomorrow should be fun...and interesting.
Not like that. We're really close nothing more-nothing less
Just hugs and cuddles
He mentioned a kiss?

Poll #874716 Label me
Open to: All, detailed results viewable to: All, participants: 1

Go ahead and Label me

Wheres all the time gone to?

Do you like me yet?

Things aren’t as good as I expected them to be. Everyone’s criticizing something or someone someone for being who/what they wanna be, and something for something that’s fake or real. It’s starting to piss me off. I’m not too sure if I have a real best friend anymore, unless you wanna consider someone who cares about you but isn’t there for you, or someone who is a bag of lies&constenly puts you down because of the way you dress or because your depressed and they don’t understand. Because I am honestly fed up with this, aren’t you?

School fucking bores me like shit. I’m failing [what else is new?] I really need a good digital camera with a mega pixel lens. Underneath the sleeve are 21 or so… Fill out the rest, figure out what it is. I really don’t know how I am anymore. Nowadays it’s in between shitty-Fine-and no clue.

Is it just me or is everything around me perishing? That’s how it feels.
So tell me.
Why are you still reading this?

Go on, go ahead and label me.